dis morning, in between a conversation, someone asked me "dun you wanna do something you want to in life?"
i didn't even answer her question. in fact, i replied.. "i wish there isn't any surgery, or juz let me die."
since then..i've been thinking about dis non-stop. what if i am really dat weak?
i asked myself, "SO..WHATS DA PLAN?"
everything i did is a waste. goals = rubbish
went thru some blogs juz now. most of them were emo..all kinds of probs..like usual. only one of da post suddenly caught my eye. everything she wrote was nothing special. but somehow..i hav dis weird feeling..i seemed to care much, and seemed to worry a lot. WAIT A MINUTE. my advice for you: do not think of other stuff, it's not what u were thinking. well..what i wanted to say juz now was..somehow..nothing is more important than ur own health. whatever relationships, family, friends, working, studies..dey were all SITUATIONS, dey cannot affect your life and death. BUT what if you aint healthy and might not recover? and you suffered. and you had nightmares about them attacking you again for every...erm..lets say 3 or 4 nights? .....and then u woke up in cold sweats?
i might be thinking too much right now. but somehow, we dunno what's gonna happen to us next. and da "NEXT" is so near.
i should be sleepin.
